"I'm not..." He searched for the word as his eyes half closed from the feeling of Ben's pressed into his hair. Alec knew what physical contact felt like. But where he derived pleasure from any contact Ben gave him... it was the emotion as well. This was... emotional pleasure? "I'm not saying it right."
Searching his mind, he was digging through the numbed out senses and memories. Memories Manticore was trying to take away in their own right. Shivering, he clutched Ben closer. He'd fought tooth and nail to keep memories, thoughts, and emotions for Ben close to himself. Maybe that was why? "Like... Max... I don't... I don't remember much about her. Other than... she was there. But you... I could focus on you. Hear you. You make me..." Struggling at the words, he slid his hands up to cup Ben's face in them and lift his head to meet his eyes again.
"Come alive." Sweeping his thumbs slowly over his twin's cheek bones, he pulled the slightly older sibling down letting their noses touch. "I'm alive..." Lashes fluttered up and for a stunned second he understood and almost broke his heart. But... were transgenics normal anyway? Would feeling that way about his twin be so off base?
Breathing in slowly, he pushed a little closer and softly touched their lips together in a tender kiss before closing his eyes and waiting for the negative reaction.
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Date: 2011-01-12 06:10 am (UTC)Searching his mind, he was digging through the numbed out senses and memories. Memories Manticore was trying to take away in their own right. Shivering, he clutched Ben closer. He'd fought tooth and nail to keep memories, thoughts, and emotions for Ben close to himself. Maybe that was why? "Like... Max... I don't... I don't remember much about her. Other than... she was there. But you... I could focus on you. Hear you. You make me..." Struggling at the words, he slid his hands up to cup Ben's face in them and lift his head to meet his eyes again.
"Come alive." Sweeping his thumbs slowly over his twin's cheek bones, he pulled the slightly older sibling down letting their noses touch. "I'm alive..." Lashes fluttered up and for a stunned second he understood and almost broke his heart. But... were transgenics normal anyway? Would feeling that way about his twin be so off base?
Breathing in slowly, he pushed a little closer and softly touched their lips together in a tender kiss before closing his eyes and waiting for the negative reaction.